I woke up this morning, like most mornings, not wanting to get out of bed. Angry voices swarmed around my head, screaming about last night.
"HOW CAN YOU BE SO FUCKING STUPID!!" one yells.
"Well he couldn't have expected that," another tries to defend me," how was he supposed to know that would happen?"
"HE DID FUCKING KNOW!!!" he persists, "IT WAS OBVIOUS!!!"
"Give him a break."
"WHATEVER!!" he gives up, "IT'S NOT LIKE I FUCKING CARE."
These voices I've known for as long as I can remember. I think of them as extended family, there are a lot of them. The two talking are the loudest and the most involved with my life, they were the first ones to arrive. The angry one is called Char and the one defending me, Zero. Among them are many others, such as Naiku, and Mia. Neither Mia or Naiku talk much. They're kind of a couple that keeps to themselves in my mind. They always seem content within each other. I envy them.
Zero and Char continue to argue. I hate it when they do. Don't get me wrong I love arguments, they're one of the better parts of my life. But whenever, they argue, it seems to be about me, and I hate when people talk about me. It makes me feel... obligated somehow. So I watch, from a corner of my mind as two egos argue to the death when something unprecedented happened.
Naiku gets up from his post and leaves Mia's company, something that's never happened before, and begins to walk towards me. His calm indifferent look morphed into an angry , dark, piercing stare. He gets to me, and I'm terrified. Naiku is a calm, sharp, clear-headed character. He's been a man of few words, and even fewer emotions. He locks eyes with me and by this time, everyone is staring. Even Char and Zero have stopped arguing.
He picks me up by shoulders and says,"Now, Listen up kid. Regardless of what happened, you're gonna live. You're gonna walk, you're gonna talk, and most importantly, you gonna smile." He smiles a toothy grin," Heh, and trust me, it's gonna hurt. But you walking around all mopey, or even not being around at all is gonna do way more damage than what's already happened. Yeah, I know you don't ask for help 'Never beg' and all that crap, but that doesn't mean SHIT if you do nothing at all." He shouts and he tosses me to the ground, "Show some fucking character! Realize your mistake, and FIX IT! Not only that but live through." Everyone else is nodding, silently agreeing. They're as shocked as I am that Naiku said this. His truly is the virtue of Truth, the point that guides this day. There are many other points, like Char's point of Valor, and Zero's of Wisdom, along with ,again, many others that I won't discuss today. That's it for this entry.
Deuces,
Roc
"HOW CAN YOU BE SO FUCKING STUPID!!" one yells.
"Well he couldn't have expected that," another tries to defend me," how was he supposed to know that would happen?"
"HE DID FUCKING KNOW!!!" he persists, "IT WAS OBVIOUS!!!"
"Give him a break."
"WHATEVER!!" he gives up, "IT'S NOT LIKE I FUCKING CARE."
These voices I've known for as long as I can remember. I think of them as extended family, there are a lot of them. The two talking are the loudest and the most involved with my life, they were the first ones to arrive. The angry one is called Char and the one defending me, Zero. Among them are many others, such as Naiku, and Mia. Neither Mia or Naiku talk much. They're kind of a couple that keeps to themselves in my mind. They always seem content within each other. I envy them.
Zero and Char continue to argue. I hate it when they do. Don't get me wrong I love arguments, they're one of the better parts of my life. But whenever, they argue, it seems to be about me, and I hate when people talk about me. It makes me feel... obligated somehow. So I watch, from a corner of my mind as two egos argue to the death when something unprecedented happened.
Naiku gets up from his post and leaves Mia's company, something that's never happened before, and begins to walk towards me. His calm indifferent look morphed into an angry , dark, piercing stare. He gets to me, and I'm terrified. Naiku is a calm, sharp, clear-headed character. He's been a man of few words, and even fewer emotions. He locks eyes with me and by this time, everyone is staring. Even Char and Zero have stopped arguing.
He picks me up by shoulders and says,"Now, Listen up kid. Regardless of what happened, you're gonna live. You're gonna walk, you're gonna talk, and most importantly, you gonna smile." He smiles a toothy grin," Heh, and trust me, it's gonna hurt. But you walking around all mopey, or even not being around at all is gonna do way more damage than what's already happened. Yeah, I know you don't ask for help 'Never beg' and all that crap, but that doesn't mean SHIT if you do nothing at all." He shouts and he tosses me to the ground, "Show some fucking character! Realize your mistake, and FIX IT! Not only that but live through." Everyone else is nodding, silently agreeing. They're as shocked as I am that Naiku said this. His truly is the virtue of Truth, the point that guides this day. There are many other points, like Char's point of Valor, and Zero's of Wisdom, along with ,again, many others that I won't discuss today. That's it for this entry.
Deuces,
Roc
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